I always keep to myself all the heartaches, misery, doubts, envy, hatred, happiness, sadness, faults, deadly emotions et setera et setera. I cant speak it out too loud for everyone to hear because I dont want to bother them nor give them any hardships that they can not bear. I always want to express my feelings but sometimes it does not happen that way :( Cant expect them to realize it and take action to it because it was or never be understood by them. Having so much time in absorbing these things keeps me exhausted.... I guess I really have to change this attitude of mine but I cant help it. Its like a taste of a fresh blood thats so addicting and you keep on searching for that kind again and again... :((
